On the Floor

Post by **Sushi** » Wed Sep 11, 2013 1:38 pm

Mason shrugged faintly.

"If you stick around to have anything."

Post by **Tree** » Wed Sep 11, 2013 5:38 pm

Alyson winced.

" do you not want to have me around anymore?"

Post by **Tree** » Wed Sep 11, 2013 6:20 pm

"I did, but... you didn't seem to want anyone anymore."

He was scared to believe you were okay.

Post by **Tree** » Wed Sep 11, 2013 7:59 pm

Alyson looked crushed.

" I don't want to have them die... "

She offered, swallowing.

" And i'm no help, completely worthless."

Meanwhile, little Ben was struggling with recovery, but was out of surgery right now.

Post by **Sushi** » Wed Sep 11, 2013 10:54 pm

"You were obviously worth something to someone. We wouldnt' have worked so hard to keep you here and a part of things if that weren't true."

Hello, moved internationally?

Cael called her back, now worried twice over.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 6:55 am

Alyson answered, still cuddled in Mason's lap.

" hi... is he ok?"

she asked gently.

Post by **Sushi** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 12:59 pm

"It's up in the air," Cael answered honestly.

"But we kind of expected it to be a little rough coming out of surgery since he's so little and such. We'll know a later - we have to see how he does as things start having a chance to stabilize."

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 1:52 pm

Alyson nodded, nuzzling Mason as she fought her tears.

" Which hospital? "

She asked him, petting at her daughter as she fought and failed to keep it together.

Post by **Sushi** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 5:04 pm

Cael rattled off the name.

"It's probably an hour drive or so from where you are now."

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 8:19 pm

" Yeah, I'm with Mason and our little girl right now."

Alyson offered, kissing at Mason.

" ... I love you."

She offered faintly.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 8:37 pm

"Are you okay?"

Cael's turn to approach her message.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 8:41 pm

Alyson swallowed.

" I hate tight spaces... someone please don't let them into the morgue."

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:03 pm

"What happened?"

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:07 pm

Alyson was shaking,mind turning.

" I wanted out... You were so mean, and our son was.. possibly still is, dying... and you were so hurtful, and I need you and Mason both right now, and I know it's selfish but I already feel useless and worthless, and..."

She was crying and holding as tight as she could manage to Mason at this moment.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:16 pm

"I'm sorry," came a strained and distant whisper from the other end of the phone.

"Don't mind me..."

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:26 pm

Alyson shook her head, already having a cab called for her.

" No... I love you... I just... I don't think the medicine is working anymore, it feels like the world is suffocating me... I am sorry Cael.... I love you.... Call me if there is a change, please?"

She asked, wiping at her tears and waiting for the confirmation before hanging up and kissing Mason.

" Stay with her... I... even if he's going to die, i want to say good bye."

She explained gently, kissing Mason again before moving off. She would be at the hospital in about an hour and a half after speaking with Cael, in which time little Ben was crashing repeatedly.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:37 pm

Cael had meant to tell her to mention it to the doctors if her meds weren't enough, but... He was distracted now. The man just stood there with his arm crossed, peering through the glass with a concerned scowl.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:48 pm

Alyson would have to argue a moment or ten but would soon slip up to Cael, looking over him.

" How are you?"

Alyson asked, looking over Cael. She looked like she really had just been dead, eyes slightly sunken, her entire body bleach white. She needed to eat and rest or she would be back to dead soon enough, but given everything convincing her to do either right now would be impossible.

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:54 pm

"Alive."

Cael shrugged a little.

"Maybe a little better than you have been the last couple days?"

Post by **Tree** » Thu Sep 12, 2013 9:58 pm

Alyson looked down.

" Mason said it's been four days."

Alsyon replied, shrugging.

" I have no idea how I'm here right now."

She offered, looking to her son. Half her soul seemed to be dying just looking at the little boy.

" How is he?"

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 5:53 pm

"Has it?"

Cael hadn't really noted any days. One or fifteen. All the same. His eyes remained on the baby.

"Breathing."

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 5:55 pm

Alyson nodded slowly.

" I am sorry I can not be what you need..."

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 6:01 pm

"I didn't even say anything about you."

Cael's ability to coddle at the moment was limping.

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 6:07 pm

Alyson winced, looking to her son.

" I am sorry i could not carry him sufficiently."

And she moved to be by the window, looking in at her son, whispering the softest of goodbyes. She was so sad to do it like this, but she worried if she got closer he'd shadow again and kill himself.

She looked away and left Cael alone with his son, calling Mason out in the hall and just breaking down into tears. He wouldn't get too many words, once in a while a sorry, maybe he'd catch 'stay dead'.... she had a serious mind f*** happening right now. dying, and watching your kid die would both do it to a person, so with the double dip she seemed justified in her tears.

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 6:11 pm

"You did your best. I'm not angry with you."

"Alyson... come on... You..."

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 6:14 pm

Alyson clung to her phone as she sobbed herself sick, having eaten nothing, she would choke and cough and cry harder, starting to struggle to breath. Eventually she would force herself to move, finding herself in the middle of a town she didn't know, barely able to keep herself warm as the evening chill sat in. Her cell phone battery had died in her 'talk' with mason, and the poor woman would resume tears at this point.

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 6:37 pm

Cael sank onto the bench beside her, dropping a bag of chips into her lap. He had the same kind in his hands. The vending machine didn't really have anything good in it.

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:03 pm

Alyson looked up, and kind of scooted away, eyes filling with tears all over again.

"I am so sorry."

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:09 pm

"It's not your fault."

Cael shrugged as he idly shoved chip after chip into his mouth like a procedure.

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:12 pm

Alyson shrugged, ignoring the chips in her laps, swallowing hard as she held herself.

" I will find a cab and leave you be. "

Alyson promised, heartbroken as she would move to stand.

" I... let me know if something happens..."

she asked, walking from him now.

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:17 pm

"Alyson, come sit back down."

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:21 pm

Alyson winced and stood there, swallowing as she forced herself to turn around and sit. Nothing, not a word from her as she just sat there.

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:30 pm

"Eat the chips."

Cael was obviously forcing himself to eat his.

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:35 pm

Alyson looked over the chips a moment and seemed to eat three or four before she seemed to lack the energy to move.

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:37 pm

"I get that you don't want to be here."

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:46 pm

Alyson shook her head.

" I just realized i shouldn't have shown up. It was my mistake... i just wanted to tell him goodbye."

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:50 pm

"Why shouldn't you have shown up?"

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 7:55 pm

Alyson looked over Cael.

" because i failed, and i've failed too much.."

She looked to the chips in her hands now, and handed them to him now before she stood and picked a direction to walk in.

Post by **Sushi** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 8:00 pm

"You didn't fail."

Post by **Tree** » Fri Sep 13, 2013 8:02 pm

Alyson shook her head.

" I couldn't even die right."

and with that, she was gone down the sidewalk.